Well, I'll start with the good news. I'm typing from my "new" used Mac PowerBook G4 sitting in my lap. I has a battery in it. That right there beats my Dell in half. But that's mostly where my joy has ended. I've found myself sitting in Toronto, with dirty snow around me, in a funk. It's not fun.
What's more frustrating is finding and internship. Nothing is coming together. I'm in the second round for the NGA internship in Washington, DC. But, as for all the rest, I'm getting mostly "No"s and "Maybe"s. It's rather work hard and I disheartening. No one seems to want to believe in me. How can I prove myself if no one believes in me? It's making me second guess myself and my own abilities. It's hard to explain without including the email, but since it embarrasses me too much to just post online like, if you ask me for it, I would send it you...maybe. The entire ordeal to find an internship has taken a toll on me and I'll be happy when it's all worked out. But, that's still a long road to go.
My mom came down last night for her birthday with Aunt Mary. I took them to the Keg Mansion along with Troy and Shannon. It was a lot of fun, even though I've had a cold. The steak there was AMAZING. And so were my mashed potatoes. All in all, it was a great night and they left too soon. So, I've spent the rest of my day playing Wii (which if you haven't tried it yet, you definitely need to, especially Wii Sports). And will continue to after I finish this entry. Which, would be right now, Shannon is waiting for me to play.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Welcome to 2007
Well, it's a little late for Happy New Years greetings. Break has come and gone and a month of my life has flown by without a single journal entry. I have spent most of my break without doing much, but getting lots of well earned sleep. I've definitely enjoyed seeing my family and not having to do anything. Having my car back has also been a huge plus.
I enjoyed New Years. I spent it in NYC with Shannon, his brother Troy and their friend, Amber. It rained, but we spent it in a great little pub drinking beer and having free champagne. So it was a worthwhile New Years and it probably was the best one yet.
Now it's back in Toronto and back to the daily grind. Classes, homework and well-timed naps. I'm not sure I could survive a day without a nap. It's going to be a long semester and I already feel tired because of it. I know that I might not be as smart as all of them, but I try. I really do try. I know I might not try as hard as them, but I do fully believe in living a well-rounded life. And that means doing more.
Furthermore, I have gotten awful news. Neelix is going to be put down this weekend. Jenny and I are so bummed out. I can't help but think about the poor dog every day. I can't think about it without feeling awful. How scary it must be to be put down and I know it's coming, but he doesn't. I don't do well with dying animals. I can't go to where my mom works part-time at the animal hospital--it usually ends with me in tears.
It's been a stressful few weeks. I look forward to a routine again. and maybe for some things to start going my way.
As far as finding an internship goes, it's been a frustrating process with little to no rewards. A yes would definitely be nice. I applied to the NGA in Washington, DC. It wasn't my first choice, but I had to start thinking of backups. With every "no" I've gotten I've started to freak out. But, obviously come this summer I'll have an internship somewhere since I have to. I just hope people will start to make light of my talents and stop saying "no." But in the mean time I'm feeling over-sensitive about my intelligence and talent.
So, whenever people tease me about my abilities lately, I get very offended. Especially from my friends in class.
I enjoyed New Years. I spent it in NYC with Shannon, his brother Troy and their friend, Amber. It rained, but we spent it in a great little pub drinking beer and having free champagne. So it was a worthwhile New Years and it probably was the best one yet.
Now it's back in Toronto and back to the daily grind. Classes, homework and well-timed naps. I'm not sure I could survive a day without a nap. It's going to be a long semester and I already feel tired because of it. I know that I might not be as smart as all of them, but I try. I really do try. I know I might not try as hard as them, but I do fully believe in living a well-rounded life. And that means doing more.
Furthermore, I have gotten awful news. Neelix is going to be put down this weekend. Jenny and I are so bummed out. I can't help but think about the poor dog every day. I can't think about it without feeling awful. How scary it must be to be put down and I know it's coming, but he doesn't. I don't do well with dying animals. I can't go to where my mom works part-time at the animal hospital--it usually ends with me in tears.
It's been a stressful few weeks. I look forward to a routine again. and maybe for some things to start going my way.
As far as finding an internship goes, it's been a frustrating process with little to no rewards. A yes would definitely be nice. I applied to the NGA in Washington, DC. It wasn't my first choice, but I had to start thinking of backups. With every "no" I've gotten I've started to freak out. But, obviously come this summer I'll have an internship somewhere since I have to. I just hope people will start to make light of my talents and stop saying "no." But in the mean time I'm feeling over-sensitive about my intelligence and talent.
So, whenever people tease me about my abilities lately, I get very offended. Especially from my friends in class.
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