Well, it's a little late for Happy New Years greetings. Break has come and gone and a month of my life has flown by without a single journal entry. I have spent most of my break without doing much, but getting lots of well earned sleep. I've definitely enjoyed seeing my family and not having to do anything. Having my car back has also been a huge plus.
I enjoyed New Years. I spent it in NYC with Shannon, his brother Troy and their friend, Amber. It rained, but we spent it in a great little pub drinking beer and having free champagne. So it was a worthwhile New Years and it probably was the best one yet.
Now it's back in Toronto and back to the daily grind. Classes, homework and well-timed naps. I'm not sure I could survive a day without a nap. It's going to be a long semester and I already feel tired because of it. I know that I might not be as smart as all of them, but I try. I really do try. I know I might not try as hard as them, but I do fully believe in living a well-rounded life. And that means doing more.
Furthermore, I have gotten awful news. Neelix is going to be put down this weekend. Jenny and I are so bummed out. I can't help but think about the poor dog every day. I can't think about it without feeling awful. How scary it must be to be put down and I know it's coming, but he doesn't. I don't do well with dying animals. I can't go to where my mom works part-time at the animal hospital--it usually ends with me in tears.
It's been a stressful few weeks. I look forward to a routine again. and maybe for some things to start going my way.
As far as finding an internship goes, it's been a frustrating process with little to no rewards. A yes would definitely be nice. I applied to the NGA in Washington, DC. It wasn't my first choice, but I had to start thinking of backups. With every "no" I've gotten I've started to freak out. But, obviously come this summer I'll have an internship somewhere since I have to. I just hope people will start to make light of my talents and stop saying "no." But in the mean time I'm feeling over-sensitive about my intelligence and talent.
So, whenever people tease me about my abilities lately, I get very offended. Especially from my friends in class.
1 comment:
Woo-hoo for being well rounded and awesome (as you are). I got your card and it made me smile a lot and was needed - so you are going to see Flogging Molly in March... Me too : ) they are playing the Mid-Atlantic Shamrock Fest at RFK. Anyway keep your chin up, I miss you and will talk to you soon.
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